Learning to live in the presence of God & others

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ. If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. And our hope for you is firm because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort.

2 Corinthians 1:3-7

A season of pain, a season of confusion, a season of disappointment, a season of major obstacles and our family was smack dab in the middle of it! Abundant suffering that I wanted to fix, but I couldn’t. Feelings of helplessness to take away the pain! It was as though we were in the center of the Grand Canyon floating freely and suddenly floodwaters began pouring in with no escape in sight. All we could do was doggie paddle to stay afloat amidst the white water rapids.

Now, let me say, I had my own pain, but the pain that was worst for me was watching my young adults struggle. Suddenly there was a feeling of responsibility to take it away, to jump into action, to protect, to problem solve, and who am I kidding….to fix it all! I wanted to blow up the inflatable raft and paddle us to safety, my emotions were high and my thoughts were wild, as I searched for the exact place I would insert self! After all, I’ve got skills and I can use them! :)



Exactly at the right moment, I ran across a quote from Paul Miller I had written down months before. It said, “anxiety is self on its own, trying to get control”. Wowza! This was me and that is where the shift began for me.

Glaring at me like a scorching sun in the heat of the day was truth about myself. Jumping into action, was way easier then slowing down to jump into the arms of God. Feeling productive was easier than doing ‘nothing’.

What was most needed wasn’t me inserting myself, but instead letting go of control, fastening my life jacket, and Being FULLY PRESENT for the ride.

Focusing on this tiny nanosecond of space is the place I’d like to go right now.

Exactly in this space, the gap between our fear and our response is where we get to notice our thoughts, our desires, our feelings, and those of our young adults, with a Holy God.

Empowerment resides here as God is God and we are not! In this space, we listen to God’s still small voice and we listen to others below the surface of th